Sometimes I wonder,
What the world would be like if I blended in,
If I didn’t turn the head of every eye roll in the room and every “I'm better than you” that’s ever lived,
Sometimes I wonder.
Would I be bored?
Of never feeling like a statement and a risk,
Or would I finally feel at rest and never find myself afraid to go outside,
Would I feel safe?
Sometimes I wonder.
But afraid doesn’t mean that I’m not proud,
And nervous doesn’t mean I don’t have love for myself,
I'm the person that i need myself to be,
And I’m proud.
Sometimes it’s hard,
When my face and name don’t match my ID,
And all I want to do is have a drink with friends, but it’s so hard,
And the whole thing makes a scene outside the bar,
Sometimes I wonder.
But afraid doesn’t mean that I’m not proud,
And nervous doesn’t mean I don’t have love for myself,
I'm the woman that I need myself to be,
And I’m proud.
There’s this athlete on the track all day and night,
She’ll push her limits to be faster than the rest,
And on some level I relate, I push myself until it hurts,
But not to be the best, just to be the same.
But afraid doesn't mean that I'm not proud,
And nervous doesn't mean I don't have love for myself,
I'm the person that I need myself to be,
No matter what they think or what they see,
I'm still certain that I've never felt so free.
And I'm proud.
credits
released September 6, 2019
Music and lyrics by Melody Chance
Mixed and mastered by Melody Chance
Artwork by Melody Chance
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